It's been awhile, since I could breath smoothly (my health condition just okay). It almost two year and it's so devastating (two diff event). Day by day, nothing seems to change, but pretty soon ...everything's different. Weird! I try motivate myself miahahaha. Sometimes feel like it going to against the flow and sometimes just want it end, just like that. Bukan give up, but tired, ya just tired..pancit. Selagi bernafas ni, hidup mesti terus ya dak.
We want to live by each other's happiness, not by each other's misery. We don't want to hate and despise one another. Gloomy day must end. But I dont lie I hate certain people.What? I am human not Jenglot. They said, if you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her.
Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate. Yep,I know sometimes people don't understand.
Understand? Understood? Hm..if we pay really close attention, life doesn't suck, aite. Sometimes it's not enough to know what things mean, sometimes you have to know what things don't mean [Bob Dylan].
So what stood out was my anger. Grrrrrr.. The anger, frustration, entitlement, blame and rage surged through my system. I was pissed..but sat back and realize, me aren’t up against anyone but myself. Yup myself only. I had to stop blaming the people around me kan. Life is beautiful, so why must ruin it. Tapi, jangan bertemu jer hehehe, for now lah.
People who come into our lives are our teachers. They literally mirror us back to ourselves. I had done things. So be grateful for the beautiful moments and pain. Be happy even not happy yea :-)
Mornites..Saturday dialysis 2moro better rest.
Tu me manques.
